Going through old phones and messages and seeing photos of you. We all know you hated them but I captured them anyway. I never thought I would feel this way looking back at them. 4 whole months this world has been without your wonder. I feel so out of touch, we need grandma gossip back. I hope you’re up there looking down on everything to keep up with what we’re doing. I don’t know what stage of grief this is but if it’s the price we pay to of had that love from you? I’ll stay here forever. Thank you for the Robins in the garden this morning as dad was with the company who are going to install your memory tree. Keep sending the signs I look for them constantly.